Pay RESPECT

Today and Everyday I believe we all should take a moment and thank the troops who are defending this country in this pointless war. Also to the FAMILIES may god continue to Bless and watch over you all as well your family members.

This is Something I Woke Up at 4am Writing

Now you occupy my thoughts

Not like nothing before
I do not want to stop it
But then I do not want to adore it
Afraid it is just a joke
Afraid my heart would get crack
It sad I reflect on my past
Almost got me bringing up last emotions
Damn do you have that power

Or is it I am that weak

To believe
To alter

Any words of yours

And my life of mine

I do not really know

But what i do know is that

You are starting to occupy my time

 Never the less even my dream line 

===>>>JUST SOME THOUGHTS....OF MINES

BRITTANY MURPHY

 R.I.P. to the 32 year-old actress Brittany Murphy who died on  Sunday December 20, 2009.

Actress Brittany Murphy died Sunday at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center after going into cardiac arrest at her Hollywood Hills home.

MOTION PICTURES Starring BRiTTANY MURPHY

1993: Family Prayers
1995: Clueless

1996: Freeway

1997: Bongwater, Drive

1998: Falling Sky, The Prophecy II, Zack and Reba

1999: Drop Dead Gorgeous, Girl, Interrupted

2000: Trixie, Angels!, Cherry Falls, The Audition, Sidewalks of New York

2001: Summer Catch, Don’t Say a Word, Riding in Cars with Boys

2002: Spun, Something in Between Sky, 8 Mile,

2003: Just Married, Uptown Girls, Good Boy!

2004: Little Black Book

2005: Sin City, Neverwas

2006: The Groomsmen, Love and Other Disasters, Happy Feet, The Dead Girl

2008: The Ramen Girl, Futurama: The Beast with a Billion Backs

2009: Deadline, Across the Hall, Abandoned

 

 

8MILE & CLUELESS

UPTOWN GIRLS

HER HUSbAND

FOREVER MISSED

SEE YOU LATER CALi!

My last weekend in Los Angeles, California in the year 2009 was the true definition of Los Angeles. I am glad I saw everyone I was suppose to see. I am glad LJ was there through it all.... driving all over Los Angeles. The Pushaz Party was crazy , people never can come together without all the drama but overall my girls and I had a blast=). The rest of the night is untold because it just is no need to explain.  Finally got to see all my nephews that I missed so much. Saturday was the most stressful day of them all. Packing and making sure I did not forget anything was hectic. Running around the airport with the baby was more hectic but i can say I kepted my cool in the airport. The holiday dinner with the Perkins was Great well needed. I am glad I know such wonderful people. I baked a chocolate cake for them and everyone loved it especially Justin and Jill. Iam greatful god blessed us to see them before we left for our winter break in Washington State. The most craziest part of Saturday was finding that the airlines charge for each check in bag you bring . Overall I am glad that day is over.


MORE TO COME!

KOBE BRYANT

[K]obe [B]ryant is such an AMAZING basketball player.... God truely blessed him to show his skill in something he loves so much because it SHOWS! Dont we all agree?

VIDEOS COMING SOON!!

TODAY iS THE DAY!

Today marks the day I am completely finish with my first semester in college and it feels great. Just walking out of that class room at eight this morning was just so much joyment . Staying up late studying and hanging with the roomates was fun and well needed. I am proud of myself that i did not give up on anything that was set in front of me. I do admit it was days when it was hard  but with god standing beside me I completed the semester. I know have many other semesters to complete but hey it is my first semester  I should be proud of myself. I am looking forward to this GREAT WINTER 5 WEEK BREAK=). Let the fun began and the good times ROLL!

AN ITCH IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BACK..I JUST CANT REACH

Once again this week is finals and tomorrow is my last final thank GOD. Something has been on my mind lately and it has been bugging really . I really do not know what God is trying to tell me. It is about a friend who just stop being my friend. Out of all my friends i would never think this person would be out of my life so that is probabley why. I love this person no matter what ..if this person was to call me today and said he or she needed me right now I would come without a doubt. I thought that is how we both felt but I guess not. I just learned that years does not matter when it comes to friendship. I am not saying i was the perfect friend for that person ..i know i made some mistakes but i do deserve a clue before it is all called off completely from that person. To this day I wonder if this person is not affect like does this person even think of me ? It is not that i only call upon that person just only when i needed that person ..i came running when that person invited me to events and supported that person. This lost in my life and yes i said lost has been on my mind for months. Now i do understand everybody has their own definition of friendship and we both were on separate pages that never even been read by eachother. My definition is clearly different from that person because if it was the same we would still be friends. Like you said you saw me as a sister..and a sister is more important than a bestfriend in my world. I just feel if this person looked at me as a sister this person would of told me what  he or she had a problem with dealing with me instead of hiding it... because since i considered you as a sister always i would of made some changes for our relationship . Thats how a realtionship works... any relationship..communication and obviously we did not have that at all. I am not asking to be back the best of friends but  just having an understanding vise versa because I want to see the other side

And maybe this person can careless about me and about my life... maybe who knows it just bothers me to know how tight we were ..well atleast i thought... and how we are not anymore. I do apologize for not being there when you needed me but how am I suppose to when you never tell me you need to talk or anything. Just know friendship stands  for to me that no matter what the distance or the time limit we go without talking or seeing eachother... that person is still a friend because that is real friendship. Everybody has a life and everybody does not converse with every friend they have everyday.. and i know i do not converse with my sisters everyday because i am in college and i understand people have lives too.... but i do know that does not mean i am going to stop being there friend regardless of what my life seems to be filled with.

I guess God just wanted me to write this out and understand it more. Will this person ever read this...who knows...it is a small world... well thats what they say.

The Storm is Over Now=)

Today is going to be good day i can just tell. It is 3am on Sunday morning. I am up listening to music and i was not going to write a blog today but i just had to=). I feel like no more pain, tears,sorrow, heartache, and suffering in my life. I am over it all and it feels so good. I have unblocked the things that came with pain because now i am threw with it all. Must i say God works in mysterious ways

RELEASING FINAlS

 Today is Saturday and i have been going strong studying for my finals next week. I do not kow how to feel about them honestly but all i know is that the time is coming up for each one. Studying has its POSITIVE effect:

1. Idont have to worry about not knowing or getting stuck on a simple problem

2. I can walk in the classroom Confident knowing I actualley studied

3. I can walk out of there knowing a did my best and only expect the best.

4. STUDYING helps me stay away from facebook ahahaa=)

 Dont get me wrong it makes me very tired , especially when i have a 8 am class the next morning. The crazy part about it is that i never wake up as tired as i thought i would be thanks to the man upstairs.

So Monday i will have my Economics 100 Final, Tuesday is my Theatre 160 final[i am lowkey talented when it comes to acting i suprise myself too haha] Then finally WEDNESDAY is my math final.

By noon the same day i would be saying hello LA! and see ya in 5 weeks FULLERT0N.

IT CERTAINLY HAS bEEN A WHILE:)

HEY THERE =)

I have not been on here for a minute. I guess I can say I have been pretty busy with my first semester at CAl STATE FUllerton. I am almost done with my first semester by wednesday of next week. Iam pretty excited for winter break because i can actualley get some REST. Ilearned more than I expected my first few months here. I love my ROOMATES[Sho, Mel, & Ro] so much they have really helped me so far in my journey. I can say I got closer with GOD these past few months. More so I am feeling way better about myself than I ever have felt in my life. I am going out of state for my five week winter break and I just cant wait to see what that is going to bring me. During my first semester alot of people have came back in and forth in my life but i just know God is only keeping the strong around me. I have also made a realy close friend at CSUf his name is Andrew. I met him in my math class and something just told me to introduce myself to him and ever since we have been friends. So i guess the saying is right you find some good friends in college.I try my best every month to visit LA and see my close friends, sisters, and handsome nephew gosh i miss all three of them. The year is about to be up and i do not really have any new year resolutions because i realized its just another year and I am still going to leave my plan and worries to the man upstairs because only he knows. See you soon blog, I shall return soon.

xoxo LEGENdARY MERCEDES;)